Dark Night of the Soul. The light in the end of the tunnel?

Out of suffering have emerged the strongest Souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars. – Khalil Gibran

At some point, most of us go through a phenomenon known as the Dark Night of the Soul.

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Although we try to run from it, it is still there. Although we try to cover it up and smother it, it is still there. Although we try to put on a happy, smiley face and pretend it away, it’s still there.

While some of us seek reprieve in religious thought, others of us seek respite in spiritual philosophy or psychology, and still, others seek relief through addiction and mind-numbing external pursuits.

The truth is that although we are all born with Souls, not all of us know how to fully embody and integrate them into our human experience. The truth is that in our modern world, we live ego-centrically rather than Soul-centrically.

Mystics, saints, and shamans throughout history have all referred to this ego-centric human struggle in different ways. But the one thing they all had in common was their tendency to point to the need for us to consciously grow into our Divine potential.

One of these people was Saint John of the Cross, a Spanish monk who coined the term “Dark Night of the Soul” (“Noche Oscura” the name of one of his poems) based on his own mystical experience.

These days, the concept of the Dark Night of the Soul has come to be used in a much broader way. What was once a term reserved for people actively going through a Spiritual Journey, has now come to easily label anything ranging from a few bad days and a period of depression to the death of a loved one.

Antonella Barberini, art project “5 steps to cope with PTSD and smash it” (2019)

But what really is the Dark Night of the Soul?

The Dark Night of the Soul is a period of utter spiritual desolation, disconnection, and emptiness in which one feels totally separated from the Divine. Those who experience the Dark Night feel completely lost, hopeless, and consumed with melancholy. The Dark Night of the Soul can be likened to severe spiritual depression (it’s a type of spiritual emergency.)

The concept of having a Dark Night of the Soul has existed for a long time, and spans back to the 16th century when poet and Catholic mystic Saint John of the Cross wrote a poem entitled, “La noche oscura del alma (The Dark Night of the Soul).”

Wrote Saint John:

If a man wishes to be sure of the road he’s traveling on, then he must close his eyes and travel in the dark.

Traditionally, the Dark Night of the Soul refers to the experience of losing touch with God/Creator and being plunged into the abyss of godless emptiness. The modern understanding of having a Dark Night of the Soul, however, is not exclusively a religious one, but can often mean losing all meaning in life, feeling out-of-touch with the Divine, feeling betrayed or forsaken by Life, and having no solid or stable ground to stand on.

Some of the heaviest questions we ask during this period include for example, “Why am I alive?” “Why do good people suffer?” “What is truth?” “Is there a god or afterlife?” and “What is the point of living?”

Dark Night and Depression – Is it the Same Thing?

The Dark Night of the Soul is not the same as depression.

Although depression shares many of its characteristics with the experience of having a Dark Night of the Soul, it can often be treated and sometimes cured with medications, cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT), mindfulness practices, lifestyle changes, and so forth.

Furthermore, depression often has its roots in biological chemical imbalances and/or unhealthy thought patterns, and often comes as a result of personal loss, mental illness, physical illness, abuse, genetics, and so on.

On the other hand, having a Dark Night of the Soul is a much different experience because it is primarily a spiritual and existential form of crises that can’t be treated or cured with therapy or psychiatry. Therefore, those of us going through the Dark Night often feel an increasing sense of hopelessness, unease, and despair as we discover that no one can save us but ourselves. Inevitably, this makes us feel even more alone, frustrated and confused about the world and about ourselves.

I am intensely aware of what it is like to experience complete psychological and spiritual desolation and although the feeling seems endless, there is a light at the end of the tunnel if you just know where to look.

I am a forest, and a night of dark trees: but he who is not afraid of my darkness, will find banks full of roses under my cypresses. – Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra

Spiritual Transformation.

After all, the symptoms of the Dark Night of the Soul are not that different from depression. But while depression is psychological/neurological/biological, the Dark Night heralds deep-seated changes occurring within us known as spiritual transformation.

You crave for the loss of something intangible; a longing for a distant place or to “return home” again

What is my purpose?

The ultimate difference between depression and the Dark Night of the Soul is that depression is usually self-centric, whereas the Dark Night is philosophical in nature and is accompanied by existential reflections such as “Why am I here?” and “What is my purpose?”

Also, when depression ends, not much changes in your life in terms of your beliefs, values, and habits. However, when the Dark Night of the Soul ends, everything in your life is transformed, and life becomes wondrous again.

Wilde’s Burial in Paris.

My desire to live is as intense as ever, and though my heart is broken, hearts are made to be broken: that is why God sends sorrow into the world … To me, suffering seems now a sacramental thing, that makes those whom it touches holy … any materialism in life coarsens the soul. – Oscar Wilde “Letters

Polish psychologist Kazimierz Dąbrowski once coined a term Positive disintegration which views tension and anxiety as necessary in the process of spiritual and psychological maturing. In other words, it is the friction within us that causes the mirror of our Souls to be polished enough for us to glimpse our True Nature.

I often hear people speak of the Dark Night as some kind problem they have to “fix,” or something they “went through a long time ago, that is now over, thank God.” But what these people thought was a Dark Night may have just been a glimpse of the darkness within them, especially when they speak egotistically about it as if it were a badge of honor.

A true Dark Night of the Soul leaves a long-lasting impact on you – it changes you completely. When you exit a Dark Night, you will discover that something is always taken away from you (for the better), such as your beliefs, your perceptions, your former meaning in life, or even in rare cases, your ego.

The metaphysician Ananda Coomaraswamy put it this way:

No creature can attain a higher grade of nature without ceasing to exist.

Have you ever seen a butterfly begin to emerge from its cocoon? It must struggle in order to strengthen its wings. If someone frees the butterfly from its cocoon prematurely, it won’t be able to fly because its crucial tempering stage will not have occurred.

The same is true for trees. Trees need wind in order to build their structural strength to stay upright.

Your Dark Night of the Soul is your wind, your cocoon; it is an ego death whereby you shed the ego that prevents you from embodying your Soul.

What is the Point of Living?

If you try to avoid the hard work of, as Ananda put it, “ceasing to exist,” or breaking down your old confining structures, you won’t have what it takes to truly embody your essential nature.

Before any true growth or healing can occur, there must be a process of destruction and complete annihilation of everything you thought would bring you happiness.

Most people experiencing Dark Nights realize this: that nothing makes them happy anymore; not bodily, not sexual, not emotional, not material, not political, not social, not even spiritual. And this is the start of the purification process.

Conditioning vs. reality …

Since birth you have been conditioned to believe that money will make you happy, a sexy/rich partner will make you happy, a high IQ will make you happy, a big house will make you happy, a thriving career will make you happy, a perfect life will make you happy.

But this is all a lie because whenever you pursue happiness, you are immediately losing touch with the fact that happiness is already here, right now, in this very second, without you having to do anything or question anything. Happiness IS.

This sounds like the most ridiculous thing you might have ever heard, and yet deep down you might sense the truth in it. If this is the case the first layer of your illusion has been peeled away; what a blessing!

A blessing in disguise …

In reality, it is absolutely terrifying to have the ground beneath your feet ripped out from beneath you, and this is precisely what we experience during the Dark Night of the Soul.

And yet, this experience is the greatest teacher of all to us because it illuminates what is fragile, transient, and subject to change, growth, and decay. We are subsequently left with a feeling of great inner emptiness, but within this emptiness, we eventually come to see what can never come, go, change or die, and that is the truth of who we are: pure, peaceful, and blissful conscious essence.

The mind is always frantically searching …

The mind is a product of our evolutionary development: it protects us and structures our existence, and through it, we can experience the beauty of life. But in order to truly come to any closure during our Dark Nights we must understand that the mind is limited, narrow and finite – and therefore so is our reasoning.

Why must there be a “point” to living other than the experience of being alive in all of its fascinating and shocking diversity? Why must we “pursue” or “find” something rather than simply experiencing each moment fully and completely in the simplicity of Being?

That is why I say that happiness isn’t this or that, happiness IS. What exactly are we seeking when we want to answer the question, “What is the point of living”? We want a satisfactory answer that will appeal to the mind and “GIVE” us happiness.

But happiness can’t be given because happiness IS. This might all sound like fancy rhetoric, but I recommend that you let it sink in and really look into it more. For me it took years, but these six questions helped to solidify the understanding that happiness and fulfillment are already here, now. Please read them to continue your journey.

The Dark Night and The Spiritual Awakening Process.

As humans, the prospect of change is avoided and resisted because it is unknown territory. Therefore, we fear it. For this reason, we require a Spiritual Awakening.

There are three ways that Spiritual Awakenings can occur:

the first is at the hands of wise spiritual teachers, the second is through the spiritual drive of soulfully mature people, and the third is spontaneously due to life experience.

Spontaneous awakenings arrive in a number of ways: a terminal diagnosis, old age, a near-death experience, a physical accident, the loss of a loved one, a romantic breakup, the destruction of your home or homeland, suicidal depression, or the complete loss of your religious faith.

The Dark Night is a herald, an omen, of change. It lets us know that we can’t continue living the way we have been living. There is no growth, no awakening in life, to life, without first seeing and acknowledging our existing disappointment.

Acknowledging our disappointment means becoming aware of the deeply held sense of “incompletion” that we all carry; it means becoming aware that something is desperately missing from our lives. Those that have experienced, or are currently experiencing a Dark Night of the Soul will know that something very fundamental at a core level is out of focus or completely lacking in their lives. Those going through a Dark Night will sense that so much more is possible in their lives, even though they don’t exactly know what that “so much more” is.

Paradise lost and found …

One of the common reasons why Dark Nights occur and are prolonged is due to mystical experiences, or short glimpses of the divine, which spiritual teachers often refer to as “grace” or samādhi. Soon afterward, the person “loses” this experience, and is plunged into unhappiness again. This is called the “halo effect,” “afterglow” or what the Sufis speak of as the “sobriety of union.”

Why does the “halo effect” happen? It happens because of the stark contrast between one’s rediscovered Divine Self and the return to one’s disconnected and tormented Ego self. To the spiritually mature person, the halo effect sets the stage for a future encounter with the transcendental, with God.

However, for the less prepared seeker, the glimpse into the Divine stirs up even more distress as old habits, obsessions, thoughts, and behaviors reappear. Now, such a person realizes that he has a long, complex, and demanding task of purification and transformation ahead of him.

In Spiritual Alchemy, there is a word for this experience called solutio; putting all the hard stuff in the waters of reflection (your ideas, your habits, etc.), where it dissolves and breaks apart, shows itself for what it is, and gives you the opportunity for a fresh start.

Find freedom through purging …

The solution to one’s suffering and disconnection from the divine realm can be any method of cutting away, dislodging, disintegrating and clearing old pieces of your life so that you can begin afresh.

Essentially, the Dark night is a process of shedding away your old home and going in search of a new one. Understandably, this process requires a huge leap of faith into the unknown which can come at quite a sudden and frightening pace.

If you think you might be going through this journey, it’s important to understand that many of us have been where you are. Many people still are. There is no map, there is only the flickering luminescence of your Soul to light the way.

I hope our work can encourage, embolden and support you if you are undertaking this descent into your Underworld.


While every experience of the Dark Night of the Soul is different, the one common thread is that it is a path of initiation. You are in the dark so that you can understand what Light is. You are disconnected so that you can know what connection is. You are lost so that you can find your way back Home. If these explanations of the Dark Night don’t resonate with you, please go ahead and discard of them. I’m not here to tell you what the Dark Night of the Soul should mean because ultimately you must figure that out for yourself. You need to be the one to make meaning out of your experience. I can only offer my own understanding.

If you have read up until this point you are probably looking for additional help, and that is completely understandable. However, the Dark Night of the Soul is a complex and profound experience and it cannot be solved by reading a “six-step” formula or bullet list. What I can offer you, however, is a simple meditation which may provide you with some level of relief.

DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL MEDITATION.

When you can dredge up enough energy (I know how exhausting and depleting the Dark Night can be), try experimenting with the following Dark Night of the Soul meditation:

Find a quiet and undisturbed place. If you like, play some celestial or ethereal music in the background to set the mood. Lie down and close your eyes. For a minute or two focus on your breath. Feel your chest rise and fall. Once you feel connected with your body, shift your focus to creating an image of yourself walking through a dark forest. Imagine that you are looking above to see the dark tangled branches of the forest obscure the sky. What does the forest feel like? Is it cold, hot, balmy, humid or icy? Can you smell, feel or taste anything?

As you keep walking through the dark forest, the path in front of you seems endless. The atmosphere feels deathly and melancholic. Suddenly, a white wolf emerges from the trees. It looks at you with intelligent and kind eyes and begins to accompany you as you walk. Your feeling of loneliness lifts slightly as you enjoy the company of your animal friend. Suddenly, the wolf beside you stops and stares intensely into the dark trees ahead of you. You peer ahead but cannot see anything but dark shadows. Suddenly, your wolf companion lifts up his head and lets out a loud and haunting wolf call.

The hairs on the back of your neck stand up. Just after the wolf stops howling, a white light slowly emerges from deep within the forest. At first, the light is tiny and like a pinprick. But as you walk towards it, the light becomes bigger and brighter. A feeling of hope begins to fill you. Tentatively, you start jogging towards the light. You notice that the faster you run, the bigger the light gets. The closer you move to the light, the more open and expansive you feel. You pick up your pace. The feeling is exhilarating! Far behind you, the white wolf howls again. A feeling of wildness and freedom starts to warm you from the inside out. As you continue running, the light begins to consume your vision. The dark forest begins to quickly fade. As you look down, you notice that your legs are the legs of a wolf – without knowing it, you have experienced a total transformation – and it is liberating! Picking up your pace, you keep running and you let out a loud howl. The piercing sound of the howl dissolves all hopelessness, sadness, and darkness left within you. The howl has completely purified you. All that remains is pure light, love, hope, power, and peace. You feel spacious and open. You are free!

Enjoy the feeling of freedom for as long as you wish. When you are ready, wiggle your fingers and toes and return back to the room. You may like to journal about your experience.

Feel free to record this visualization, get someone to read it out to you gently, or change the meditation to your own liking. It has been created to ultimately benefit you. 

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To end this article, I’ll leave you with one of my favorite Dark Night of the Soul quotes by David Whyte – a man who understood the value of making peace with the darkness:

…Time to go into the dark
where the night has eyes
to recognize its own.

There you can be sure
you are not beyond love.

The dark will be your womb
tonight.

The night will give you a horizon
further than you can see.

You must learn one thing.
The world was made to be free in

Give up all the other worlds
except the one to which you belong.

Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
to learn

anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you.

– “Sweet Darkness” by David Whyte

Dark Night: How to get through it?

Ask Totem Animals Silent Guides for help.

Webster’s Dictionary defines a totem as: “A natural object, usually an animal that serves as a distinctive, often venerated emblem or symbol. A means of personal or spiritual identity.

Check out What’s your Sign for more Inner Awareness and Totem Animal Symbolism.

Accept.

Courtesy of Heni’s Happy Paintings – her art work is on WP and Etsy.

What Does Jellyfish Symbolize? Jellyfish is a symbol of love, so if it appears in your life, it means that you should trust your heart and follow your own emotions. It is also a symbol of acceptance and balance. … The jellyfish is a symbol of faith, intuition and sensitivity as well.

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Surrender.

The polar-bear spirit animal is a powerful spirit guide. It’s not surprising because the polar-bear symbolism represents strength and endurance, as well as acceptance and surrender. Just like the bear spirit animal, the polar-bear meaning is telling you that you should surrender to where you are in your life.

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Self care.

The shark spirit animal is a peaceable predator. If you want to know the meaning of the shark symbolism, it is to be strong and aggressive when it comes to opportunities and challenges. At the same time, forge lasting friendships and work hard to keep the peace

Courtesy of Zentangle Doodle on Deviantart


The shark spirit guide asks you to take care of yourself. He encourages you to practice self-care on a regular basis. Additionally, the shark meaning in your life has to do with change. This totem helps you to understand that some changes are not good. It calls upon you to hold your ground in order not to disrupt things that are important to your existence. If you feel that someone – or a situation – is imposing certain changes in your life, don’t feel obliged to accept it. When the shark spirit animal comes into your life, you will have a clear understanding of the changes that you should accept. All the other changes are detrimental to your growth. They are likely to compromise your security and threaten your sense of personal growth. The shark spirit guide lets you know that change should not take place just for the sake of it. If you are on the right path, keep going strong. Also, the shark meaning in your life has to do with your protection. It comes into your life to re-ignite your motivation.

Courtesy of Zentangle

You need to protect what keeps you going.

Furthermore, the shark spirit guide asks you to take care of your health. It’s okay to work hard. However, take time off every now and then to relax and nurture your health. The shark is likely to appear in your life when you have a lot of emotional drama in your life. It fortifies you so that the drama does not engulf you.

The Isolation Period of healing …

It is necessary to take yout time and make up your mind, in order to recover and find your True Self.

Darkest Before Dawn — Heni’s Happy Paintings

Bonsoir Atlanta;)

Darkest Before Dawn is my new painting. Each year around the International Day of Peace I like to paint a dove of peace. I’m a little behind the curve as the date was on September 21st but better late than never. I decided to paint a dove flying at night as lately it seems that […]

Darkest Before Dawn — Heni’s Happy Paintings

Oh, well, tonight, on 21st of December, I found a like on my post and just can’t stop watching all of her art work. You can like it or not, she puts a story on each painting and it’s quite realistic. I like her series from mythical creatures to sea life and doves for the international Peace Day on 21st September. Ok Heni, you made my day, thank you. I am posting here only the most speaking to me at this moment in life.

Sorry, Heni, I am skipping all production about cats; they are a cutie, and I love the story that you write for each painting. Well done ! I wish you and your family Happy Holidays from Paris suburbs in a winter Solstice Day. Definitely, I feel this is Darkest before Dawn sign indeed.

Dark Night : Bipolar is not a medical condition.

Dawn in Férrières-en-Brie, November 2019.

This is an incredible find who I have been listening all nights long, during my Journey from the Caterpillar to Cocoon stages.

Whilst you can find all Butterfly process in his channel, one of my milestone is gaining a different understanding and perspective on this bipolar medical condition.

Have been bipolar in my youth, until I mastered my swing moods, with plants, and flowers, and walking, yoga and mindfulness. Please, I am not here telling you to drop your pills, and say to you that we can do it without medicins and psychiatrist.

Winter 2012

My message here is YOU ARE THE ONE who can really understand what is going on in your mind and add plus value (natural, holistic or spiritual) to your life.

STORY TIME.

 For the story time, my neighbor went mad one night, in january 2015, while I was struggling with my anxiety, and couldn’t sleep already. He tried to kill her wife for the second time. He also tried to beat a policeman (who was wounded on his head falling in the fight and tapping to a table’s angle), who came at 1 am in the house apart on same flat. The day after, after a sleepless night, I was told from his wife, his story: 25 years medicines plus “smoking” and drinking. So, what would you expect? Complete healing? Bliss? Genius?  

Antonella Barberini
PTSD Beautiful Trauma
Web Editor, IPF Angel and Author

Conversations with God.

This is a perfect example of what a dark night of the soul means. And I wish Neale Donald Walsh will be back to Paris, to attend his conference, at least once.

What’s burn out?

Spiritual Awakening

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  1. Wake up
  2. Bliss
  3. Dark night
  4. Void
  5. Grounding
  6. Purpose and life mission

Work with your heart.

Quiet your mind.

Detach from your mind. You are not your thoughts.

Phoenix Symbol: a Parisian Sparkle rises from her ashes.

“ Personal transformation can and does have global effects. As we go, so goes the world, for the world is us. The revolution that will save the world is ultimately a personal one. “ ~

Marianne Williamson

Self portrait 2019

Burnt out.

The mythical phoenix animal totem is the keeper of the fire in all of creation. It represents transformation, death, and rebirth in its fire. As a powerful spiritual totem, the phoenix is the ultimate symbol of strength and renewal.

“You become Parisian…”

Champion Gold Medal Federica Pellegrini sponsors PTSD Beautiful Trauma, until she doesn’t say the opposite.

At Shakespeare’s &co. Café in Saint Michel.

With courtesy of the german waitress who accorded me to take a pic of her tatoo. It was made in London, she explained me.

Paris 2014 Père Lachaise.

Paris 2019.

Biggest Cheminee in Hotel S***.

Dark Phoenix quotes: “I am fire and life incarnate.” Joke, at the time of my burn out, I am working in a renowned european tourist destination where the hotel’s main attraction is a cheminee, the second larger in Europe.

At the time, I enjoyed this kind of video while knitting, in 2015. Crocheting helped me with keeping focused (and front brain’s part takes over memory and hippocampus, so that you are not overthinking, nor flashbacks). First, I tried my first time ever blanket in colored wools, and second, and third… attic24 is still my reference ( she is a selfless british lady ).

World War First archive.
12th january 2015 posted on my Facebook Page. Handcrafts and semi-precious stones help me and feed my creativity.

The Voice France 2015.

This song still makes me cry a river, she is a cutie and helped me with crossing over this time of dark and twilight. She is not related to Phoenix but look at her dress and stage scenery.

Conchita Wurst wins Eurofestival 2014

“Rise Like a Poenix”

Paris, 2015-17

“No longer I am the woman you knew”.

My Smile told me that I was Unstoppable.

My inner Strenght.

Strenght and Balance.

Justice celtic symbol. 21/06/2017, dunno why I chose a Summer solstice day. Flaming?

Oh no, not I, I will survive
Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I’ll stay alive
I’ve got all my life to live
And I’ve got all my love to give and I’ll survive
I’m a survivor

888 : Angels Sign Number that takes you to the next Step!

The hardest and deepest spiritual lessons are learned after a dark night of the soul. When everything you hold dear is taken from you and you are left with nothing.

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Just got through this revelation number and coincidence in a time of my life in which I am feeling blooming and rising up from ashes in all terms. Well, I dunno where you are in your Spiritual Path compared to my understanding of Universe and its laws. Lately, in my morning hours I use to address my Self to Divine Cosmic Energy like a Divine Matrix that I feel feminine and loving, and holding my Guardian Angel’s stone in my hand.
Angels, I dunno much about it, but I believe in signs and Universe Emotional Intelligence, that speaks out loud sometimes and when you least expect it.
As you can notice, I am not posting much lately, and I am busy taking one day at the time. Soon it will be holiday vacations for me. Back to my family and sources. I am opening my self to others much more than in the past, and new people are coming toward me, nice people who share same experiences in life and who like to laugh 🙂

Btw I won’t tell you more in details, here, it’s not my purpose. Just want to share this link I have been surfing through to get the meaning and message behind “888”. Feel free to share, to ask questions and if you are not scared, leave a comment.

Please, Keep your Values Up !

Cheers xx

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The Spiritual Meaning of Angel Number 888

If you’ve been seeing angel number 888 repeatedly and you’re wondering what it means then you are in the right place.

It’s no accident that you are seeing this number over and over again. It has a special meaning and it’s important that you understand how it relates to your life at this time.

Seeing repeated numbers is one way that the angels try to send you messages, guidance, and advice.

They also create magical synchronicities, sending you people and events that will aid you in your quest to become your true self. Angels also communicate using symbols, patterns, and dreams.

5 meanings of Angel Number 888

The number 888 has many spiritual messages for you to understand. During meditation, I have connected with the angels and asked them what they are trying to say when they send us angel number 888. Here is what they revealed to me:

1st Meaning of 888: Step into material abundance

888 is a number of infinite abundance.

In Chinese numerology, 888 symbolizes material wealth and good fortune. I believe this holds true across the world, not just in China.

If you turn the number 8 on its side you get the symbol for infinity.

At a surface level, this means that you have been working hard and you will soon reap the reward in terms of financial abundance and material wealth. You should expect money to come your way soon.

2nd meaning of 888: Abundance is more than material things

Whilst material wealth is nice to have, there’s another type of abundance that the angels want you to know about: The Universe’s infinite possibilities.

In your journey to become your true self and live your soul purpose, you will need to make many connections, develop new skills and acquire resources.

Seeing 888 repeatedly is a message from the angels that the universe is here to support you and will send you everything you need at the right time. The universe is infinite in its possibilities and you need to understand this at a deep level if you are to fulfill your divine quest.

 

Keep asking the universe for what you need and believe that the universe will hear you. Understand that everything is unfolding in line with divine timing. When the time is right, the universe will send you what you need to evolve into your true self.

If you want to discover how Divine Timing is playing out in your life then I highly recommend that you get a numerology reading. Based on your name and date of birth, this reading will help you understand the numerological frequencies you resonate with which in turn, shows you how the cycles of time operate in your life. It will also help you understand your unique gifts and what role you have in the divine play. Click here to get your reading. The initial reading is free. And like me, I’m sure you’ll find it uncannily accurate.

3rd meaning of 888: You have learned a deep spiritual lesson

Sometimes you will see 888 after a period of hardship in your life.

This could be in your relationships, work life or finances. Although you still might be licking your wounds and reeling from the situation, seeing 888 is a reminder that you will grow stronger because of it.

 

The hardest and deepest spiritual lessons are learned after a dark night of the soul. When everything you hold dear is taken from you and you are left with nothing.

It is in this place of darkness that you realize that you are free from expectation about who and what you should be. And you come to realize that you can be anything you want. To remind you of this, the angels will send you the number 888. Letting you know that you are not alone and that you have the universes’ support and guidance to see you through this dark time.

4th meaning of 888: You are aligning with your truth

If you’ve found yourself disagreeing with others recently and saying no a lot then this means that you are aligning with your truth. Perhaps you’ve recently looked at your community, society, and the world and you have a deep sense that something is wrong.

You’re being sent angel number 888 as a confirmation that you are living in alignment with your truth.

Each of us has choices to make about our values and what we believe to be true.

When you find yourself in situations that don’t resonate with your truth you feel uneasy.

You are strong enough to say no, to demand changes and to make your voice heard.

The angels are with you and the universe will support you all the way.

 

5th Meaning of 888: Listen to your intuition to live up to your full potential

Right now, you are at a crossroads.

There’s the path that society wants you to take, and there’s the path that the universe wants you to take. You know what feels right for you but you’re finding it difficult to step onto the path that’s right for you.

Seeing 888 repeatedly is a warning sign. You must listen to your intuition and allow it to guide you onto the right path. If you don’t you will end up living a lie and not living up to your full potential.

Listen to your intuition, follow your heart.

Seeing 888 when you are at a crossroad in your life is a reminder for you to believe that your intuition will lead you down the path that will see you live up to your full potential and fulfill your divine purpose.

What to do if you see 888 repeatedly

Now you know the meaning of 888 its important that you listen to what the angels are trying to tell you and make changes in your life.

In my channeling sessions, the most important lesson the angels wished to impart is that of self-confidence and self-belief.

You need to recognize your own strengths, understand that you are a highly advanced spiritual being that has a gift to share with the world. Believe in yourself. Believe that you can live life on your terms, in line with your values and that it can be filled with abundance.

 

 

 

Self Publishing. First book: check!

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It was september 2015, I finally got my sick leave after a long stressful time and, not by chance, I went to the doctor office to ask for a ( life changing ) prescription. When I came out I got a burn out sentence. Yes, it was happening to Me, for real.

“Me? Mrs Perfect and Wonder Woman? Go away.”

Time to make a point, to say the least, and realise which were my real needs and prior Values.

My memoir is half journaling, half potential distopic sci-fiction. Definitely, it was my best company, and writing has been the first self-help therapy. It’s everyday struggle for survival, when everything literally burns inside out, and you go through your Dark Night of the Soul.

As soon as I  finished to rewrite it for the third time, I sent to Italian publishing editors. To be honest, I was contacted only by one, small editor from Rome, who asked me 1500 euros to publish it.  Forget it. Italy is one of the few countries left not yet involved in any of latest terrorist attacks, it goes without saying that there is a lack of empathy. It’s okay.

Thank you for contacting me in case you are interested in being my editor for my next book on Stigma, which is a reportage, in the Shakespeare’s language. Before I repeat the awesome experience on Amazon.

Best Regards,

Antonella BARBERINI

Mystic Signs: Dawn of New Life?

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Before sharing next article, with courtesy of The Mystic.org,  I want to tell you of  a strange thing that happened to me, when I almost turned into madness, before my sick leave was due.

One afternoon, I was walking on the sidewalk, to the supermarket, when I found this watercolor on the hedge. Middle of nowhere. A long hair woman walking on the beach with a long summer dress, a hat on her hand, and a shell on her ear, her eyes closed. My Italian sister is quite a believer, and she told me that a shell in christian symbolism means “listen”.

Well, me too, I was in the middle of nowhere, playing the hamster wheel in my job, unhealthy relationships, far from my true, higher Self. No purpose at all. At the same time, feathers came on my way. Any kind of feathers, just anywhere …. and I did a research, to debunk the code of what was the meaning behind it. Have a guess. Well, what the fuck is this reality? Is it a joke? Lila, as indians say, the “big Game”.

Where do these signs come from? Which level of vibration? Is My Counsciousness trying to tell me there is more than what we think? What I think….

Isn’t being anxious a strong demand of deep faith? Are we not asking to the Great, Invisible Mystery to manifest in our life just to comfort us, and show us that this spiritual and physical pain is useful, somehow?

For the end of the story, at that present moment I didn’t have my smart phone yet, and no chance to take a picture of that watercolor, that I didn’t want to touch, as if it was sacred. Then, when I came back, from my shopping, the painting was gone.

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Here in this dark night, the lifelong ego sense dies: impotent. Having fulfilled its part, now weak and incompetent, it is dissolved — transmuted. From a higher sense now awakening within you, you slough off your false sense of self. You now know yourself to be a different person than you thought you were. Your ego was merely experiencing some of the attributes, some of the qualities, of your true nature, while at the same time obstructing others.

You, in passing successfully through the dark night, enter the realms of higher consciousness. You’ve been cleansed of the most deep-rooted sickness: your ignorance of your true nature and your inadequate, often totally wrong opinion of who you are. You now cease your inner conflict and abide serenely in your true nature. The night is over. The dawn of a new life in higher consciousness transforms your bleak life of the past few months into one with a heavenly nature. You have been delivered of the intolerable bondage to ego.

Henceforth, you will walk the earth seeing others afresh, living a new life, and abiding in your true nature. You have become a son or daughter of higher consciousness. Now your words and actions will be attuned with your true self. Now you express inspiration and comfort.

The dark night has passed. It is over.

What must the caterpillar do that it may one day fly?

The Dark Night of the Soul. Feat. Trevor Ilesley.

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While recovering from PTSD, I went through different coaching videos on YouTube. This is one of those who really impressed me. Well, I love his dark soul style.

The dark night of the soul, for the short story, comes from a poem of 1600 spanish pilgrim written by Saint John of the Cross. It refers to a mystical and spiritual journey of psychological growth and soul awakening.

Something is wrong with you, or you feel like that, like you are wrong and anybody else is right. And you have to fit the box but you can’t, and you won’t, by your choice, because you start to take responsability of who you really are. You give birth to your true Self.

So, usually the dark night of the soul is when you feel depressed or anything in your life is not going the way you would like. What’s the meaning of your life, and so on.

If you, too,  become mad about the Dark Night of the Soul, I might recommend to listen to Loreena McKennith . Beautiful, and inspiring.

Here is Trevor. Bless you.