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Go with your Gut feelings.

If you are uncertain, just keep it open (or put your foot on the gas)

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Talking about Astrology and Birth Chart, my Moon in Pisces is the trait of charachter which gives me a higher perception. That means that I like to explore my subconscious in as many ways as possible.

Much time before unfamous events in Paris, which is the milestone in my story (like 9/11), I was testing my ink watercolors with no idea of the outcome. I rarely take the time to drawing or coloring, but when I do I am 100% into it.

That time I remember that I was chatting, with my friend, who lives in Rome, and I sent her my latest experience in watercolor. I don’t have evidence of those two paintings because I did not have any smart phone nor I thought it would be of any relevance in the future.

Message: keep your drawings even if they are not Leonardo alike !!!

If you like, I used the Steiner method: just do it. What my friend saw in my watercolor was an hippocampus. In my mind I tried some mosaic, with blue and white, and colors was so mixed up that yellow and blue turned into dirt green, eventually kaki (birds yellowish shit?). The whole thing reminded me of intestine. A wet cave where to dive deep and loose yourself. It was not beautiful as painting and that’s why I don’t own it anymore. But it spoke to my unconscious mind.

The message to me was unilateral : dig deeper and dive into your Unconscious Mind (and Intuition). But what the hell was it all about?

There I understood two things:

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Lascaux graffiti in Southern France.
  • drawing helps you to express yourself and leave a footprint of your passage on Earth; just think to Lascaux as a complex of caves near the village of Montignac, in the department of Dordogne in southwestern France. Over 600 parietal wall paintings cover the interior walls and ceilings of the cave. The Hall of Bull tells us : we have been there, in the Paleolitic !!! lol
  • intestine is our second brain; as the last scientific research says, there is a marvelous connection between Brain and Gut and I am glad to share this article here, if you want to understand why, as child, your were always constipate (!) and what your body was trying to tell you, when those bad habits that made you so uncomfortbale and nervous, seemed as “normal”, because of your sedentary lifestyle (when in fact, doctors were uneducated and knew only one way to help you with purging).

If you want to learn the totem animal symbolism of hippocampus/seahorse, you can check Avia’s work here. But I also gave another meaning to Seahorse, in my story, in fact Hippocampus is called the side in our brain linked to memory and learning. One of my deepest fears, during my recovery journey, was not to be able to read or learn anymore. My memory was very short due to chronic stress and fatigue. Headache endured daily for months (paracetamol was my best friend, so I will probably develop some stomac cancer, no wonder why). And of course, post-it notes everywhere.

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To end up with my insight, I started exploring my intuition and tarot reading (just as amateur, I do it for myself), I went through Doreen Virtue Angels Cards (Life Purpose and Past Lives with Brian Weiss) and began the guided meditations. I also started and abandoned the sophrologie in Paris, because my anxiety was still so high level, and public transportation was lived as a punishement. And still is !!!! No excuses, I dropped that course because I could not identify with me as therapist and being paid for. Maybe I am wrong, but my belief is that when you have a gift, like healing, you have to do that for free or against reciprocity (not money). Is this a limit ? If so, skip my podcast “Stay fit with Diana”. It’s free lol (with a nice Paypal tipjar, sure!)

Rimini, 2016.

The following image is a graffiti of that stage, when I was trying to figure out what my bowel was trying to communicate. I was back home in Rimini, Italy, for a visit to my family, and when I saw it, it was mesmerizing. It was not the only hippocampus I saw in that trip. Some inner force was pushing me, but I had no idea where she wanted me to go!

It goes without saying, that since I am expressing myself through my artwork, writing, and social media, my intestine is working like a suisse clock ahaha

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Roma, Fontana di Trevi. Are ancient Greek and Roman telling us something with those stunning fountains? They are not regular horses. Did you ever notice? Is the man trying to tame the beast?

Of course, I had to improve my diet with more vegetables (pumpkins and sweet potatoes are my best), soupes in the evening, and fruits (kiwi, figues de barbarie, banana) in the morning work !!!! If you want to share some nice recipes with me, you are welcome:) to be frank, I don’t have many, I find oven very practical, and like the taste of grilled veggies…

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I don’t have any evidence of my drawing, but I kept finding signs like this. Like a mystical hidden and invisible force was telling me “Go, jump. Dive in.”
Maybe, what I call signs, are only nice coincidences, and I should get a diagnose for obsessive compulsive disorder?

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Chiron – the Wound of Identity.

My hippie side comes out sometimes. Except I believe that astrology finds her roots in ancient times, and far deeper than Sixties. Simple wisdom.

I like to investigate, not the future, but the traits of charachter and birth chart. In brief, I am costantly looking for answers. And I admit that I am finding too. This time I was surfing my North Node (soul mission), which I keep for another time, and I found this intuitive ginger girl very intriguing. She was explaining how Chiron in tenth house was dealing with an abusive autority, which can be a father figure, or teachers, or bosses. Bingo. Not quite. Only after gone exploring her channel, I found more details about my wound. And I remind you that I have been recording about my father this week… holy shit 🙂

“Out of every tragedy, ” she said, “comes new strength.”

Diana x

If you want to calculate your Birth Chart, and see where is your Chiron, check out the link here https://astro.cafeastrology.com/natal.php

The wound of identity is when we feel we don’t have the right to exist.

The following part of this article is credit of https://astrobutterfly.com/

Aries is the very first sprout to emerge from the soil in the spring, choosing life, choosing to ‘get out there’ into the world, and express itself. Chiron is where we feel wounded, ashamed, broken, and inadequate. Chiron in Aries is about the greatest wounds of all – the wound of identity.

Symptoms of the identity wound

  • “I am nobody” – an overall feeling of emptiness and disconnection
  • “I am not enough” – a desire to “prove” oneself
  • “If I don’t fit in, I don’t exist” – a desire to be liked by everyone
  • A tendency to copy other people, but at the same time a lack of defining role models
  • A desire to remain unnoticed, a fear of expressing one’s opinions and beliefs
  • Difficulty to connect with one’s body or feelings
  • …or on the contrary, a continuous to prove one’s uniqueness by behaving oddly
  • A tendency to hurt oneself, physically or psychologically – self-inflicted wounds, abuse of drugs, alcohol and medication, overworking, feeling ‘numb’

How to Overcome the Wound of Identity with Chiron in Aries

This is Me.

What can you do about your feelings of worthlessness? Can you heal your wound of identity?

No achievement, no money or success can heal this wound – because being you is not about becoming something you are not, but is about learning to accept that it is OK to be you!

Chiron in Aries will ask you to address and heal – once and for all – the wound of identity, a wound that we are all born with.

Chiron in Aries is about taking responsibility for your existence, is about being present with your wounds, with your pain and with your shame.

Show yourself despite the pain. You are going to feel it, no doubt. But no matter what, you need to show up, do what you need to do, take a step forward, to BE YOU.

You are Here for a Reason

Your existence is the very proof you deserve to BE. There is a reason why out of billions of genetic possibilities, it was YOU who made it.

Yes, not only you have the right to exist, but you are here for a reason. You were born with a unique mission.

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