PTSD Beautiful Trauma

An expulsive cataclysm of the soul

What is a Trauma?

When you live traumatic events you get stuck with obsessive images that you don’t even realize in the present moment. They will hunt you in the subconscious mind for months, and maybe more. Especially, if you decide to choose denial and you don’t event talk about it. Guess a part of our mind would better prefer to hide somewhere on a false paradise than reality ( but then again, what is reality? If not a very unique and individual perception ). If I would make a film on 10th January 2015, 10h40 am, I would be very accurate on details of each moment in time of my traumatic event (so-called fake alert). The security men rushing before the event, and special forces got to the crowded family hotel hall; my colleague whispering to my ear, watching the news, joking about the fact that we were a military target for terrorists and we were expecting something to happen at any moment.

SAY THAT YOU ARE SHOCKED.

“Say that you are shocked” told me someone if I wanted to be listened from the occupational medicine and management, when I couldn’t even make up my mind that ‘something unsual’ was ever happened. Except, eventually, it did. Unfortunately, my imagination that day flew high up to the stars, where I could find flying horses catching up with me. Or perhaps I was going mad, but at least I felt divinely protected.

A traumatic event is an incident that causes physical, emotional, spiritual, or psychological harm. The person experiencing the distressing event may feel threatened, anxious, or frightened as a result. In some cases, they may not know how to respond, or may be in denial about the effect such an event has had.

THIS IS THE RIGHT MOMENT.

Seek professional help

Look after Yourself

Turn to others for support

YOU ARE UNIQUE.

We are all different, find what is more effective for your Beautiful You.

With Courtesy of Darren, Norfolk, UK

NIGHTMARE or FLASHBACK.

Common symptoms of PTSD include re-experiencing the event in nightmares or flashbacks, avoiding things or places associated with the event, panic attacks, sleep disturbance and poor concentration. Depression, emotional numbing, drug or alcohol misuse and anger are also common.

STORY TIME

Traumatic events are often linked to scenario or images we just can’t forget. A few years ago, I was the witness of a street accident, in which a nice lady was victim of spectacular accident. It was 20h00 pm and she was running home, presumably, in a suburb area, she crossed the road rushing forgetting of the crossroad’s fire. Me, staring at the crime scene from inside the bus on my way back to home. What I saw at the start was a lady crossing the road running, and what I saw at the next moment, she was gone. Disappeared? Where was she gone? Suddenly with my left eye a long haired doll flying over a few meters distance, in between cars speeding up. I was shocked. And thought “ever seen this” to another man watching on that ”action movie” scene. Tempted to stop and get off to rescue her. Eventually, the man who crashed with her body stopped and took care of her. Obviously calling the first aid. Me, too, I did a phone call to local firefighters which are very close by. Except, the bus driver who didn’t see and replied to me in a cold way “that’s fine, don’t worry, Madame, first aid is not far”. Since that accident, I never ever will run again to catch a bus or a train and metro. I am done with this Parisian rushing thing. God bless that woman and who rescued her at first to reassure her. Not sure she survived, and in which health (physical/mental) conditions.

DODGING or BURNING.

During exposure, values in the image can be adjusted, most often by “dodging” (reducing the amount of light to a specific area of an image by selectively blocking light to it for part or all of the exposure time) and/or “burning” (giving additional exposure to specific area of an image by exposing only it while blocking light to the rest).

COLORED FILTERS.

Filters, usually thin pieces of colored plastic, can be used to increase or decrease an image’s contrast (the difference between dark tones and light tones). One method of photographic printing, called “split filter printing,” is where the photographer determines two separate exposure times using two separate filters to create a single print.

HIGHLIGHTS and RICH BLACKS.

This method allows the photographer to achieve a broad tonal range, with detailed highlights and rich blacks. After exposure, the photographic printing paper (which still appears blank) is ready to be processed. 

STOP BATH and FIX.

Photographers generally begin printing a roll of film by making a contact print of their negatives to use as a quick reference to decide which images to enlarge. The paper that has been exposed is processed, first by immersion in a photographic developer, halting development with a stop bath, and fixing in a photographic fixer. The print is then washed to remove the processing chemicals and dried. There are a variety of other, additional steps a photographer may take, such as toning.

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